parents

[manic]

“i love you”
is what you say to me
people say actions speak louder than words
but in this case they are on an even playing field
you twist my mind
i become so wrapped up in your lies and deception
i can’t decide whether or not to believe your words
you make me feel small
you make me feel that i am a freak
you tell me you love me then beat me down with every word you utter
you say that you know me then fail to remember my best friends name
i cant be around you
every moment i feel im suffocating trying not to let my true self out
trying not to go too far with a joke, praying to appease your idea of me
but i always slip through
i always come out
and i always make you upset
“i love you”
is what you say to me
but you and i both know its a pathetic lie