A CRY FOR HELP

[painfulexistence]

I told you I loved you,
Praying you loved me too,
But what you said to me,
As easily as a buzzing bee,
That what we had, you wanted to keep,
So I said I was fine,
As I cried myself to sleep,
I said I was fine,
As I realised that I was just faking,
I said I was fine,
As I was already breaking,
I said I was fine,
As I felt I had been slapped;
I said I was fine,
As my last straw snapped,
I said I was fine,
As I stained my wrists red,
I said I was fine.

As I wished I was dead.

Don't blame yourself,
It isn't your fault,
I realise now that I was a fool,
I was living a lie,
Simply because it was better than my reality,
I was living a lie,
Who could love someone so broken,
I was living a lie,
Because if you saw my truth,
You would never look at me the same way,

But now it's out in the open,
And I'm crying for help,
I can't do this on my own,
I just can't cope,
The stress,
The loneliness,
The emptiness,
The pain,
I just need someone i can talk to,
Someone who can hug me,
And say that everything will all be alright,
Someone who will take away my blade,
And promise to never give it back.

I feel like I'm drowning,
Every breath dragging me deeper,
Every word pushing those I love further away,
Every cut dragging me closer to my end,
Help.