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Post by gonemooner on Jul 7, 2015 1:44:35 GMT -5
Gazing away at nothing in particular
Watch..yet not seeing what's in front.
What have I done since I began
Nothing in particular it's all been a stunt.
Waiting for time to pass for nothing in particular.
drinking helps..can't help if I'm a drunk.
What am I waiting for? Nothing in particular.
Guess someone who can wake me and be blunt.
Till then I'll just stare at nothing n I particular
Just a drunk pulling stunts so blind I can't see she's right in front.
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Post by gonemooner on Jul 7, 2015 1:45:59 GMT -5
I have no idea where im going...but im going
Ive been awake all this time...and yet im dreaming
I feel sluggish but my body moves on its own..crisp as ever
I have no idea what im doing...but i keep doing
Repetition, they said, would sharpen your skills
But you cant sharpen something you don't have
Im not sure what it is im looking for....but im looking
I feel like im wasting time...but is there really a time limit
Where exactly is the finish line
When did the race start
When did i lose sight of the track
Lost in the dust of other people's "success"
Im just running in place
The hamster in the wheel...
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Post by gonemooner on Jul 7, 2015 2:16:55 GMT -5
Please remind me how it feels to be happy. It has been years since i've smiled so much it hurt.
Remember when we were young, running under the water that poured out of the corner of our roof? remember hiding in the closet to scare our visitors? we laughed for hours trying to see how far my walkie talkie headset could go. remember walking to the corner with our dads and asking if we could sleep over? Making our own theme songs? seeing who can run faster? sticking glow in the dark stars on the ceiling?
Please remind me how it feels like to be sad. It feels like ages since my heart was torn out.
Remember fighting in the rain, feeling betrayed, screaming your heart out? You started to think the rain was salty but it was your tears dropping every last bit of emotion you had on the world. Remember the thunder, and how it tore the sky, like your heart, into a million piece, then melted them together in the wrong place?
Please remind me what it's like to have friends. I have long since forgotten what it's like to just sit down and truly enjoy someone.
Remember coming over so early your eyes still burn and we would play our video games and laugh when we got to a level we couldn't pass?remember beating sephiroth? remember making nicknames on how much older we thought we were. Remember when we said we would not make to 21? Remember when i was taller than you? remember when you got taller than me?
Please remind me what success is. Seems like every time i make a move those eyes look at me with disappointment.
Remember taking me to school early in the morning before work kissing me on the cheek and leaving me with a smile on your face? remember taking me to soccer practice and cheering me on during games? remember me celebrating every holiday with you smiling,singing,dancing, laughing, surprising and enjoying every second?
Please remind me what it is to love. I had a sense of it once and can not seem to find it.
remember holding me for hours on end and not letting me go until we absolutely had to? Remember waiting for me to get to you from the airport and feeling nervous? remember being angry at me one second and the next feeling completely filled with the knowledge that you would take a bullet for me? remember when i didn't have a car?
Please remind me what the basics are.
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