Post by TKei on Nov 11, 2012 9:32:09 GMT -5
(Well, now that the hurricane has passed and I finally have power back after 12 days, I can move on to posting some things I wrote during the storm. I think give some insight onto rather personal matters.)
When I let the first go, I felt no pain. I know every bit of it was my fault, but I felt no pain. I'll blame myself everyday for what I didn't do. I never even tried for what I now know could never have worked.
Yet as I stand here, letting go of you, I feel more pain than I could possibly imagine. Giving up on love is never easy, especially the second time. It hurts now, because it could have worked, and because I'm forced to watch you slip away. But I know, you are to blame as much as me. It's not just my fault for reaching too late, it's your fault too for taking too long. I beg of you, before my fingers slip through your hands, at least turn around to see what you're leaving behind. It will hurt more the more you delay.
You can lie to yourself now, but not forever. Some day you will see what is and what could have been. You don't have forever to decide. So make a choice, and standy by it. I, myself, will stand by it too. So learn to live and learn to love, because you can never go back.
When I let the first go, I felt no pain. I know every bit of it was my fault, but I felt no pain. I'll blame myself everyday for what I didn't do. I never even tried for what I now know could never have worked.
Yet as I stand here, letting go of you, I feel more pain than I could possibly imagine. Giving up on love is never easy, especially the second time. It hurts now, because it could have worked, and because I'm forced to watch you slip away. But I know, you are to blame as much as me. It's not just my fault for reaching too late, it's your fault too for taking too long. I beg of you, before my fingers slip through your hands, at least turn around to see what you're leaving behind. It will hurt more the more you delay.
You can lie to yourself now, but not forever. Some day you will see what is and what could have been. You don't have forever to decide. So make a choice, and standy by it. I, myself, will stand by it too. So learn to live and learn to love, because you can never go back.