Post by lost on Oct 7, 2012 11:16:31 GMT -5
I am screaming inside my stomach is in knots. It is hard to even consider what you ask of me when I can plainly see you are still holding something back. I do not understand why you would when I have been so open and honest not only about the way i feel but also about what my feelings drove me to. I told you am tired of looking to other men for acceptance and to make me feel like I am worth something it is sad that I had to in the first place. But I am no fool despite what you say I know you could not be any happier than I have been lately and to expect me to believe you have not also sought comfort from another is disrespectful to me. Without both of us being honest with our selfs as well as each other or it will not work. I am not willing to give it another chance with no hope at it working. So once again i am sitting at a inpass. I am not sure what your holding back and I guess it does not matter if you can not be honest with me i see no point continuing on the painful and endless struggle. My words are not ment to be cruel but like i said i am being open and honest here. If I have to seek others to "feel alive inside" I see no point in our marrage.... I don't know what more to say or even think I am trying to wrap my mind around how i could even possible do anything differnt that i have not tried over the last 5 1/2 years to not feel that I am not enough but even if I find a way it is not worth even trying if your still holding back. So take you time and think what I have said over thats all I ask .