My Lord

[Devi145]

I kneel before my bed and clasp my hands together closing my eyes I pour through my fears...

My dear lord, i come to you tonight with my unfortunate depression.

Please dont frown or comfort me with your tears,

I've come to you tonight to say my sins and complete my finals of confessions.

I thought this world could be something more than it has come to prove,

Have I been accepting all of the wrong impressions?

Please, do not answer this now...

I'm afraid of whats to come and what has passed.

I am only but a kid and i see right now my future isnt going to last.

These people act like they only get one chance to feel alive,

I want to shout out, "Stop being ungreatful and think of the kids soon to arrive!!!"

I'm sorry my Lord, but how am i suppose to be the best that i can?

When our world is drowning itself, while also shortening my life's span.

I know I seem a bit selfish and needy,

but right now i'm tired of giving to the greedy.

I look like a kid except i act like an adult.

But look at the world's result.

A kid living in fear, already too grown up for their age..

What happened to being a child and running around without seeing other's rage?

Am I asking more than you can handle Lord?

I know people arent always good, but why cant they atleast try?

I've seen wasted away homeless people with nothing to afford,

I've seen innocent people beg for their life but they only die...

Is it because of us? because of me?

I've sinned so many times, but i can make it right if you will forgive my troubles.

You sit there and listen while i babble, not knowing whether you agree.

But i know you are forgiving the sins and helping me relieve the pain each day that doubles.

I'm sorry Lord, but i must say...

I'd rather be taken out of this world to give a new soul the chance,

To make right what i made wrong every day.

I know these people in this world, they wouldnt give me a second glance.

Please, help me through my worry.

And at the time of my prayer, the Lord looked down and whiped my tears...

I finally saw a clear path, widening like its wings were spreading for comfort, the path that was once before blurry....

Perfectly appears.

I whisper a quiet thank you, and stand from my kneel.

I giggle softly at that old night's hauntings that used to scare me as a little baby

because now...im as strong as steal.

And just maybe...

I'll make it in this world.