In the Darkness You Never Cared

[runawaylove]

Is a mother really a mother
when her child was a "cutter"
when her faith in hope was looming
and her child's hope gloomy?

Is it moral to care
when she's never there?
When the child's left alone
and the boyfriend snaps like a bone.

When trust is broken
a heart that was once open,
now closed tight
I say, Its not right

I told you once,
you said "never again"
a truth so blunt
your words to him were "let's just be friends"

True I never saw him
not after that
but your patience grew thin
my soul was as scrap

man after man
you promised never again
I am your daughter
my trust for you was slaughtered

you dragged me through churches
saying "this will make it up"
the anger still lurches
my mask is your luck

I could run
but i promised i wouldn't
nights I spent curled in a bun
I blame myself but I know I shouldn't

I ask myself from time to time
"why did God put me through this life?"
Fat and ugly, never committed a crime
no words to express cut through like a knife

no answers from God
he must have forgotten
My list of answers aren't so broad
In another life I must have been rotten

was it the sight of heaven or hell that brought me this way
God forbid I have a life
if you cared you never showed it anyway
left to pick up the pieces of what should have been me...

but that's ok because you never cared...