I just want you to be happy

[ashipwreck]

I'm sorry
I tried to figure out a way
To say it,
But you know,
there is no easy way

I've been feeling like this for a while
And it's eating me alive
I've been so paranoid
I don't want to talk about it
But I can't stay quiet anymore

Please honey, don't walk away
This isn't easy on me either
I just never wanted to let you down
I wanted to be perfect
I wanted to be someone I'm not
I wanted to be the person you would fall in love with
That's why you we're so in love with me
I was someone I'm not
I was fake

This has been hell
You deserve the best,
I was never that person
I was never that person you'd fall in love with
I was me

I've never felt this relieved and sad at the same time
All this yelling
All this fighting
All this screaming and hitting and hating
I would never go back
Never

I have tried not thinking about it
But every time I see you I die inside
Seeing your broken heart
Dancing in my eyes
I just want to claw them out and never be able to see again

I'm so fragile
Everytime I try doing something good
This is always how it ends up

I know I loved you last night
I'm sorry about not loving you today
I know I'm a ship wreck
Lying in the deep ocean dying to be found
Dying to be seen,
Heard,
Loved.

I'm a cage and you're the bird
You'll never be free
I just want you to be happy