Post by onlyhuman on May 19, 2011 18:34:35 GMT -5
when i feel like this
twisting pain and jealousy
i wind up becoming remisce
wallowing in my idiocy
for letting it goes this far
not having the courage to tell her
ive added yet another scar
to my already pathetic ego
so let me disappear
vanishing into the abyss i go
no more will i let myself be overcome
with thoughts of infatuation
i am forever done
until my maturation
why do i not have perspective
to cope with all these thoughts
i try to be reflective
the exact opposite
of an emotional juggernaut
all these feelings deposit
me to the edge of oblivion
my will-once as strong as obsidian
driven under by the thoughts that im sittin in
i cant change the way i am
but i can give up before i try
i dont want to be the same
always failing and falling from the sky
living with this disgraceful mind
throwing away everything that made me kind
falling into the temptation of sin
giving me hope to pry myself up again
i write down the feelings in my heart
to try to give myself and edge
to give myself a brandnew start
its only an emotional wedge
only temporary and fleeting
giving me reprieve from the unrelenting
meaningless drabble forever haunting
and hindering me from acheiving
peace of mind.
please realize this is the first time I've ever written anything, and I'm not great with grammar, and spelling.
twisting pain and jealousy
i wind up becoming remisce
wallowing in my idiocy
for letting it goes this far
not having the courage to tell her
ive added yet another scar
to my already pathetic ego
so let me disappear
vanishing into the abyss i go
no more will i let myself be overcome
with thoughts of infatuation
i am forever done
until my maturation
why do i not have perspective
to cope with all these thoughts
i try to be reflective
the exact opposite
of an emotional juggernaut
all these feelings deposit
me to the edge of oblivion
my will-once as strong as obsidian
driven under by the thoughts that im sittin in
i cant change the way i am
but i can give up before i try
i dont want to be the same
always failing and falling from the sky
living with this disgraceful mind
throwing away everything that made me kind
falling into the temptation of sin
giving me hope to pry myself up again
i write down the feelings in my heart
to try to give myself and edge
to give myself a brandnew start
its only an emotional wedge
only temporary and fleeting
giving me reprieve from the unrelenting
meaningless drabble forever haunting
and hindering me from acheiving
peace of mind.
please realize this is the first time I've ever written anything, and I'm not great with grammar, and spelling.