Post by unburntflame on May 19, 2003 5:21:55 GMT -5
She’s tiny. Tiny little curled up hands…red blotchy feet in a wrinkled sort of ball…but all the same, I love her. She’s mine. She’s a part of me. My daughter. No, no! Where are you taking her?? We’re only going to give her a bath, Miss. Oh, okay then. But bring her back as soon as you’re finished! We will, Miss. Oh God, I’m so tired! I feel like a truck’s hit me…is everything supposed to go black when you’ve been through labour? Maybe not…umm, nurse? Nurse? Can somebody help me please! Yes, what is it? I don’t know, I just feel sick. Well, that’s natural. You’ve just given life to a beautiful baby girl. What are you going to name her? I don’t know…I think perhaps Olivia. Olivia, that’s a beautiful name. Are you feeling okay now? No, please don’t leave! The darkness will take over again! Okay, I’ll just pop out and get a doctor to come and have a look at you…. No, no! Please stay!!! Oh, she’s gone. It’s coming back…it wants to take me. Let it, let it take me…I’m so tired… Doctor, she’s been like this for about an hour. What do you think it is? Well, she has some unusual symptoms. I might take her for a CAT scan, and see what it shows. Take some blood and get it off to pathology too, nurse. Yes, doctor. Page me when the results of the CAT scan come in. Yes, doctor.
Mikaela, can you hear me? Who, what? Where am I? You’re in hospital, Mikaela. You’ve just come back from having a CAT scan. Why is my tummy so sore? I’m not Mikaela! I’m Nicole! You’ve just had a baby, a beautiful girl. But how could I have had a baby? I’ve never been pregnant! Well, you’ve been pregnant for at least the past nine months…no, I haven’t!! It isn’t mine!! Take it away! I don’t want to see it! My head hurts…that horrible blackness is taking over again… I’ll just go and get a doctor… No, no!!!!! Don’t leave! It’ll get me!! It’ll take me for good!! Oh godammit…Help!!!
Doctor, she’s coming around. Good. Mikaela, can you hear me? Who are you? And where have they taken Olivia?? Olivia!! Olivia!! Where is she? Where is she?? Olivia!! Calm down Mikaela. I’m Dr Stevens. The nurses have taken Olivia to the nursery. You can see her when I’ve had a talk with you. Mikaela, you seem to be having black outs and wakening up with a different personality. Has this happened before? What? No! Why would it? I want to see Olivia!!! Mikaela! Have you been taking any medication while you were pregnant? No! only the occasional Panadol for headaches! Okay nurse, prepare a urine sample please. Have those results come back from pathology yet? Okay, get Reggie to contact pathology and make it urgent please. Yes doctor. Mikaela, we need you to tell the truth. Have you been on any medication or taken any herbal pills within the last 6 months? Nurse! She’s going again!! Come on Mikaela…
What the hell are you doing here? And where’s that bitchy nurse that stuck a needle in my arm? Why’d you need to stick a needle in me for? And what the hell is that baby doing back here?? Mikaela, I’m Dr Stevens, remember? No! I don’t remember! I’ve never seen you before in my life! And I’m not Mikaela! I’m Nicole! I’m trying to find out why you keep having black outs. Because every time you black out you seem to switch personalities. Wait, don’t tell me. You met Mikaela. That stupid bitch! I told her to keep out of me! I told her to get rid of the baby too; it’ll ruin your life, I said. It’ll take over everything, I said. But did she listen? Nooo…precious Trevor kept going on at her…first thing I do when I get out of here is pay that little rat a visit…! Mikaela, I mean, Nicole. Have you been on any medication? Only that stuff that the other bitchy doctor put me on… Okay. Can you remember what it was called? I have no idea. He said it was skitto, umm, schizze, skittophaniea? Or something like that. She told me it would get rid of Mikaela. I don’t want her around. I don’t need her around. Nicole, can you remember the name of your doctor? I dunno…Dr Trevoney I think it was. Okay, I might get in contact with her and see what it was she put you on. When the hell can I get out of here?? It’ll be a while yet, I think. Where’s that bitch? Nurse! Nurse! Get in here! I want to go to the toilet! The nurse will be in here in a moment, Nicole. If it’s urgent, use the bedpan here. What the hell is that for?? I’m not putting that anywhere near my million-dollar arse!! Go find a cliff! Nicole, Nicole!! Can you hear me? Get stuffed…
Nicole? Are you awake? It’s not Nicole…it’s Mikaela. So she told you? She wanted me to get rid of the baby, she didn’t want it to ruin her life. She even wants to get rid of Trevor!! But I told her no, I’m keeping the baby and Trevor! She’s not going to win, I won’t let her win! Okay, Mikaela, stay with us Mikaela! … she’s going into cardiac arrest, nurse! Nurse!! Ready, get her on her side, one, two, three…
Time of death, twenty-two thirty-four. Close the eyes, doctor. I can’t bear to keep looking at her eyes. I’m so sorry, Mrs Jukavis. We did everything we could. When can I take her? When can I have her buried? We need to have an autopsy report, we don’t know why her heart stopped or why she kept having blackouts. We suspect that Mikaela had an identity disorder, normally called schizophrenia, and that she was being taken over by another personality called Nicole. Do you know anything about this? Yes, doctor, I do. Mikkie’s been on medication for years, the doctor says that Nicole was getting stronger, probably trying to take Mikkie over totally. They upped her dosage and tried some new drug as part of a trial…it killed her. Mikkie’s dead!! The poor baby! What’s going to happen to the baby?? Olivia will be given into care, either to the father, if he’ll have her, or to you, if you want her. If you don’t, then she’ll be nursed in a hospital until she can be either fostered or adopted by another family. No, no!! I’ll take her. Me and Trev will look after her. I won’t let her…Olivia…be taken into strange hands. Oh, look at her, the poor darling. She’s so tiny. I can remember when Mikkie was that old…her hands are so small…her feet are still blotchy and a little blue…
Mikaela, can you hear me? Who, what? Where am I? You’re in hospital, Mikaela. You’ve just come back from having a CAT scan. Why is my tummy so sore? I’m not Mikaela! I’m Nicole! You’ve just had a baby, a beautiful girl. But how could I have had a baby? I’ve never been pregnant! Well, you’ve been pregnant for at least the past nine months…no, I haven’t!! It isn’t mine!! Take it away! I don’t want to see it! My head hurts…that horrible blackness is taking over again… I’ll just go and get a doctor… No, no!!!!! Don’t leave! It’ll get me!! It’ll take me for good!! Oh godammit…Help!!!
Doctor, she’s coming around. Good. Mikaela, can you hear me? Who are you? And where have they taken Olivia?? Olivia!! Olivia!! Where is she? Where is she?? Olivia!! Calm down Mikaela. I’m Dr Stevens. The nurses have taken Olivia to the nursery. You can see her when I’ve had a talk with you. Mikaela, you seem to be having black outs and wakening up with a different personality. Has this happened before? What? No! Why would it? I want to see Olivia!!! Mikaela! Have you been taking any medication while you were pregnant? No! only the occasional Panadol for headaches! Okay nurse, prepare a urine sample please. Have those results come back from pathology yet? Okay, get Reggie to contact pathology and make it urgent please. Yes doctor. Mikaela, we need you to tell the truth. Have you been on any medication or taken any herbal pills within the last 6 months? Nurse! She’s going again!! Come on Mikaela…
What the hell are you doing here? And where’s that bitchy nurse that stuck a needle in my arm? Why’d you need to stick a needle in me for? And what the hell is that baby doing back here?? Mikaela, I’m Dr Stevens, remember? No! I don’t remember! I’ve never seen you before in my life! And I’m not Mikaela! I’m Nicole! I’m trying to find out why you keep having black outs. Because every time you black out you seem to switch personalities. Wait, don’t tell me. You met Mikaela. That stupid bitch! I told her to keep out of me! I told her to get rid of the baby too; it’ll ruin your life, I said. It’ll take over everything, I said. But did she listen? Nooo…precious Trevor kept going on at her…first thing I do when I get out of here is pay that little rat a visit…! Mikaela, I mean, Nicole. Have you been on any medication? Only that stuff that the other bitchy doctor put me on… Okay. Can you remember what it was called? I have no idea. He said it was skitto, umm, schizze, skittophaniea? Or something like that. She told me it would get rid of Mikaela. I don’t want her around. I don’t need her around. Nicole, can you remember the name of your doctor? I dunno…Dr Trevoney I think it was. Okay, I might get in contact with her and see what it was she put you on. When the hell can I get out of here?? It’ll be a while yet, I think. Where’s that bitch? Nurse! Nurse! Get in here! I want to go to the toilet! The nurse will be in here in a moment, Nicole. If it’s urgent, use the bedpan here. What the hell is that for?? I’m not putting that anywhere near my million-dollar arse!! Go find a cliff! Nicole, Nicole!! Can you hear me? Get stuffed…
Nicole? Are you awake? It’s not Nicole…it’s Mikaela. So she told you? She wanted me to get rid of the baby, she didn’t want it to ruin her life. She even wants to get rid of Trevor!! But I told her no, I’m keeping the baby and Trevor! She’s not going to win, I won’t let her win! Okay, Mikaela, stay with us Mikaela! … she’s going into cardiac arrest, nurse! Nurse!! Ready, get her on her side, one, two, three…
Time of death, twenty-two thirty-four. Close the eyes, doctor. I can’t bear to keep looking at her eyes. I’m so sorry, Mrs Jukavis. We did everything we could. When can I take her? When can I have her buried? We need to have an autopsy report, we don’t know why her heart stopped or why she kept having blackouts. We suspect that Mikaela had an identity disorder, normally called schizophrenia, and that she was being taken over by another personality called Nicole. Do you know anything about this? Yes, doctor, I do. Mikkie’s been on medication for years, the doctor says that Nicole was getting stronger, probably trying to take Mikkie over totally. They upped her dosage and tried some new drug as part of a trial…it killed her. Mikkie’s dead!! The poor baby! What’s going to happen to the baby?? Olivia will be given into care, either to the father, if he’ll have her, or to you, if you want her. If you don’t, then she’ll be nursed in a hospital until she can be either fostered or adopted by another family. No, no!! I’ll take her. Me and Trev will look after her. I won’t let her…Olivia…be taken into strange hands. Oh, look at her, the poor darling. She’s so tiny. I can remember when Mikkie was that old…her hands are so small…her feet are still blotchy and a little blue…
